Thursday, February 24, 2011

24 February 2011

So I think maybe the season is changing summer turning to autumn. Its a bit early I know and I am definitely a summer babe, even though I have hot flushes and night sweats. But I have a cold, a sore chest and a blogged nose, this for me is a sign of seasonal change. OR maybe its just a sign that I am over worked!

I fear that I have joined the rat race again and am doing too much. Why do I do this chasing the proverbial buck! What is it about human nature that we think we can always do more? I am once again working three jobs!

Anyhow before this blog ends up being about boring work....moving on then. I am looking forward to winter because .... being forty I won't really feel the cold and I think the idea of new shoes is quite appealing. I finally bought me some wellingtons, for 4 years I have stood watching Jason play hockey in the cold winter mornings with freezing wet feet ~ no more. Also they are quite awesome for gardening no more unsightly dirty feet ~ I am sure my physio will be grateful! I get to squelch around in the mud and feel like a kid again.

I also love the thought of Tuesdays in winter when I can sleep in and hear the rain falling softly on my window knowing that I can be home. Tuesdays have become my chosen day off. I start the morning at 9.30 with a Beth Moore group at Commonground. We are doiong the Patriachs, it a lekker study on the lives of Abraham Isaac and Jacob, history really the beginning of time....not much has changed here we are thousands of years later and essentially we are just like our forefathers same issues same struggles just a different perspective.

We looked at the life of Sarah this past week and the relationship between Sarah, Abraham and Hagar. I felt sorry for Hagar she was a victim of her circumstances, a servant in the house of Abraham did she really have a choice when Sarah told Abraham to sleep with her and secure an heir, because she could not get her head around the fact that at 90 God had promised her an heir. She laughed at God and thought she better help Him with this insane plan! I can relate, I mean what was God thinking telling her she would have a baby at 90! I mean we know gravity rules at 40 what on earth was God thinking when he told Abraham that Sarah would have a son. Wouldn't you have laughed too? I mean the bible tells us and for those cynics reading this so do the history books, that Sarah was well beyond her child bearing years, and Abraham well He was 100. Do you think they had viagra back then.....highly unlikely!

But we all know Sarah gave birth to Isaac and Hagar gave birth to Ishmael. The rest is history two nations opposing each other. Imagine being Hagar for a minute ; God says to her you will bear a son and he will be like a wild donkey! I mean seriously God rearing kids is difficult enough imagine knowing before your child is born that he is going to be like a wild donkey. Its one thing trying to raise Godly kids but to start off with such a disadvantage, shame. Poor Hagar, but in the end she realised that no matter how she could far she tried to run from her Creator she would be found. She could climb the highest mountain or go as far away into the desert as she could get, she would still be found and still be loved. She did have a choice and even though she made the wrong one and walked a long difficult road,( the consequenses of her bad choice) she was still found and loved.

Isn't that how we are some times, or maybe its just me. We try and work everything out ourselves, we think we are the masters of our little universe that we have neatly created. We laugh at God when He whispers to us.... our humaness cannot fathom that He wants to be intimate with us that He is concerned about the little details of our lives, that He does care about the pain in our shoulder or the ache in our heart. Like Hagar we try and run and clean up the mess we have made but we are still found wanting.

I am really working through in my mind(and heart) what it means to be authentic and humble at the same time. In our soceity authenticity with humility is complete antithesis. We live in a world where humility is seen as weakness and being authentic and real well that is for those nuts who don't wish to be succesful. Its so much easier to show the good side of yourself to people. To let them know you have flaws and weakneses that would be unheard of. We see it everyday, in our places of work people always trying to get ahead always wanting to be right, never accepting that we could be wrong, turning the other cheek, serving people loving collegues putting others before ourselves would be considered weakness, being a walk over.

Christ who being in the very nature God took on human form and did not consider himself equal with God. We know what he did, history tells of his life and the way he lived. It led him to death on a cross. Why because He loves us because he longs to be intimate with us. So aptly put in the words of my favourite MW Smith song

"Above all nations Above all Kings Above all rulers and all created things. Above all wisdom and all the ways of man You were here before the world began. Like a rose trampled to the ground ~ He took the fall and thought of me Above all."

Why did he do this,because He loves me. Why, I have no idea. Does it make sense NOPE, am I grateful YES! So grateful that it should alter they way I relate to others and they way in which I live my life relating on all levels to my fellow human beings. Mother Theresa, Nelson Mandela, martin Luther King all names that will go down in history were all people who understood servanthood and humilty.

I wander will my name go down in history....

"There is no passion to be found playing small-in settlingfor a life that is less than the one you are capable of living" Nelson Mandela

2 comments:

  1. A thought-provoking read. Gives me quite a bit to chew on through the day. Why on earth have you taken on another job? Take care of yourself. x

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  2. Oh Debs - I'm sitting here grinning from ear to ear!
    You have a way of putting things that is just classic. At the same time, thought provoking.

    Loved this post.
    XX
    Oh - and you should stop over working. Definitely.

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