Thursday, November 25, 2010

25 November 2010

Yesterday was a very difficult day. I have never had to mediate a dismissal before. One of the barman stole a Red Bull amd was caught last week. He arrived half an hour late for the hearing and then proceeded to beg for his job. He also arrived with his two kids. I instructed him that his children may not sit in and that if needs be we will postpone to next week. He however wanted to continue. It was clear that this guy was stealing probably on a regular basis but this time he got caught. Losing your job over a Red Bull! Are there degrees to theft? I dont believe there are. He then became quite arrogant in the end and demanded i pay him there and then. I ended up leaving work at 4.30 and sat in that horrific traffic. I was so mad that this had happened due to this guys arrogance, and in the end after deducting the loans he had made and the staff that he owed money to, he ended up owing us. Anyway I think it was an awesome learning curve for me.

Today I also went to a new physio who also focuses on rehabilitation. It was amazing to talk to him and discuss a programme that will help me to get stronger regain my proper balance and generally help me to help myself. I explained to him that I feel that I cannot keep paying for physio sessions but need to get help as I am really still battling I cannot lift my left arm above shoulder height and it continually aches, I still battle with balance still having no feeling in those left 3 toes. Some days I am so stiff when I wake up I literally have to will myself out of bed. It was tough he gave me a load of exercises and has given me a programme which he expects me to follow. But I needed this someone to make me work to improve my posture for the long term. So to all my friends I give you permission to poke me in the back if you see me slouching. It is painful but my mom al;ways said "No pain No gain" She is a wise woman.

Anyhow I have been making a concerted effort to start my day pausing and reflecting on the word of God. I believe this has made an impact and given me grace to walk humbly and with grace in what has been an incredibly difficult week.

Off to bed now I don't want to fall back into my bad habit of working too late.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

14 November 2010

One month and I will be packing for Johannesburg. I haven't had Christmas with my family in almost 13 years. I am so excited. My little niece Emma is so adorable and my great newphew Riley is gorgeous. Two little babies to play with, what bliss. I will be staying with my brother and his family so I will have Emma all to myself. Also to have Christmas with Children who still get excited about Father Christmas will be awesome, because my kids as old as they are still love putting out the milk and cookies.I am just praying that we can still get flights for Andre. He can only join us for the Christmas weekend.

Christmas.....what memories does that invoke in you. The smells of delicious food, beautiful lights presents wrapped to perfection, family hugs and happiness. If that is you then remember that you are part of the priviledged view.

For many in South Africa this is not their reality.Let's try remember that this Christmas and give generously to the poor the aged the lonely and the orphaned.

I love Sundays when there is nothing planned. Andre and Jesse went off early this morning to go 4x4 in the mountains of Stellenbosch an awesome Father and Son outing which Jesse won via an internet car game. Ashleigh and Jason got down to some serious studing(well at least I hope it was serious) and I have pottered around. Washing done, went to the nursery and bought some lettuce chives and lavender and have been playing in the garden for most of the morning.

Now I am lying listening to Bette Midler and soon I am going to get stuck into some serious scrapbooking. What a beautiful and blessed and full life I have.

My health is getting better too. Stiffness is something I am learing to cope with and the more I exercise the better I feel everyday and definitely notice a difference when I am bad and break away from being preservative free in my diet!!!! Generally though I am 100% better.

So may you all enjoy the rest of your Sunday..... watch this space for pictures of my veggie garden!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

11 November 2010

It is so difficult to put in words what I have experienced this week. However I am going to try. For those of you who have been following my blog you will know that my decision to leave Wakame was not an easy one. Of course some aspects were easy but from a financial perspective it was a huge risk. I knew without a doubt that I had to change my lifestyle, I had become someone not even I recognised in the mirror, I had become driven unfocused - LOST.

I loved the people I worked with and the fear of working from home and setting up my own Paralegal business was daunting to say the least, but at the end of September I left Wakame and said to my God "Ok I trust I am doing the right thing".

This week LegalEyes was officially registered, last week I employed a lawyer from the Congo, Didier, to work with me, and today I purchased my software for listing! Tomorrow I receive my first "income". I am amazed at the timing of everything and how it has all come together with so much ease. I feel totally blessed and happy. I love waking up in the mornings and I love what I do. I am so grateful for risks taken, someone once said "Nothing ventured Nothing gained" Too true.

I know that when we walk in the will of God and we seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, it is true all things will be added to us. It has taken me 28 years to trust this completely I am just grateful it didn't take a life time.

And so as I conclude todays post I would say to anyone reading this if you have never crossed the great divide and trusted completely and wholly in the One who created you and loves you and gave His life for you...I encourage you take that step today and if you are unsure just remember was not the nails that held Him to the cross- it was His eternal love for you!